Ok so I thought that today was going to be normal and don't get me wrong it was. It was a good normal day until I got home went on fb and I had a friend request waiting. It was from a girl I knew in primary school. Now I'll give you a little background info about why this is so weird because it really doesn't sound weird but believe me when I tell it is.
Ok so I had this friend back in primary school and I thought we were pretty good friends. Then she told me not tell anyone that we were friends because it'll make her look like she was uncool. I mean I didn't have any friends, I was a loner and then she came along and she was the first real "friend" I had. It's not like we were any different from each other. We were the top sports people in our school and represented the school for everything and beat every other school in the process so it's not like we different. It's just that she had someone to play with at lunch and I didn't.
Anyway so then the boys in our grade (hehe payne) started paying attention to me because of my sporting ability and paying less attention to her so she started saying all this shit about me to get them away from me. It didn't work but she said that she didn't want to be my friend anymore. That's when I left that school and came to my current school to start year 6
So back to the original point. She sent me a friend request this afternoon and of course I accepted in not wanting to be rude and she sends me an inbox saying how sorry she was for everything that had happened like 7+ years ago. I couldn't believe that she had actually done. That she had actually made the apology that I have waited for. We've now been talking for about 2 hours. So much has changed since then.
It's time to move on, still keep in contact and talk but move on to somethng more positive.
Friday, 29 July 2011
Wednesday, 15 June 2011
Oh The Hell That Is My Life
I felt the need to blog today as I have not in a while and for the fact that I have been told some really bad news today...
That bad news would be that the guy who I wanted to go to the formal with has just heard back from the girl who he asked and she said yes. FML!!!!!!!!!!! Not only that, it was the way he told me by wrapping his arms around me and whispering in my ear that she had said yes. WHAT TYPE OF WAY IS THAT OF TELLING SOMEONE???????? Please tell me I would love to know. This is probably a good time to mention that the guy is Doug
The thing is that everyone was sure that she would say no, even Doug thought she would say no. When he told me I was in shock and he could see it on my face by the way he looked at me. He could see that I wasn't happy for him. I just went really quiet and withdrawn from everything. I have a habit of doing this when something is bothering me or I'm upset about something. In this case I was both of these things. It's not a good feeling when the guy you wanted to go with has someone else. It makes it worse when that guy has made it his "mission" to find someone for you.
A lot of people are trying to get me to go with another guy in our grade but I don't really want to go with him. There's nothing wrong with him, I just want to go with a guy that I actually talk to a lot and someone that I'm actually friends with him and that's just not this guy. People are just pressuring me into sonething that I really don't want to do. I just want to make my own decision and not have anyone making them for me. I'm not a child I can think for myself but people just don't seem to think that.
What a way to end a school term with Doug not talking to me, almost crying in drama and crying on the bus because of what has happened during the day. I just want to have the freedom of making my own choices and not having anyone else have any imput into them. Only me. Plus I do want to go to the formal with a guy and have a great night with him but I just don't see how that is going to happen because at the moment I don't have any male friends. I also feel so stupid for putting faith in Doug. He has failed me so many times and now he has done it again.
He did tell me that he would be asking her and that he never thought that she would say yes. I put my faith in to someone that can't be trusted with someone else's feelings and I fell for it again.
Now I just have to find someone amazing to go with but I think I've run out of amazing people in my life. I guess I'll just have to see what will happen....
That bad news would be that the guy who I wanted to go to the formal with has just heard back from the girl who he asked and she said yes. FML!!!!!!!!!!! Not only that, it was the way he told me by wrapping his arms around me and whispering in my ear that she had said yes. WHAT TYPE OF WAY IS THAT OF TELLING SOMEONE???????? Please tell me I would love to know. This is probably a good time to mention that the guy is Doug
The thing is that everyone was sure that she would say no, even Doug thought she would say no. When he told me I was in shock and he could see it on my face by the way he looked at me. He could see that I wasn't happy for him. I just went really quiet and withdrawn from everything. I have a habit of doing this when something is bothering me or I'm upset about something. In this case I was both of these things. It's not a good feeling when the guy you wanted to go with has someone else. It makes it worse when that guy has made it his "mission" to find someone for you.
A lot of people are trying to get me to go with another guy in our grade but I don't really want to go with him. There's nothing wrong with him, I just want to go with a guy that I actually talk to a lot and someone that I'm actually friends with him and that's just not this guy. People are just pressuring me into sonething that I really don't want to do. I just want to make my own decision and not have anyone making them for me. I'm not a child I can think for myself but people just don't seem to think that.
What a way to end a school term with Doug not talking to me, almost crying in drama and crying on the bus because of what has happened during the day. I just want to have the freedom of making my own choices and not having anyone else have any imput into them. Only me. Plus I do want to go to the formal with a guy and have a great night with him but I just don't see how that is going to happen because at the moment I don't have any male friends. I also feel so stupid for putting faith in Doug. He has failed me so many times and now he has done it again.
He did tell me that he would be asking her and that he never thought that she would say yes. I put my faith in to someone that can't be trusted with someone else's feelings and I fell for it again.
Now I just have to find someone amazing to go with but I think I've run out of amazing people in my life. I guess I'll just have to see what will happen....
Wednesday, 25 May 2011
The Problem With Today Was You
Today was suppose to be the best day ever. Instead it was one of the worse days as I had this sudden hatred for the male species. I couldn't stand anyone male. It was so weird because it only started when Doug came and started talking to me this morning, he wasn't talking to me about anything import but I was really dismissive of him. Then other guys that are my friends were talking to me and I really didn't want to talk to them either.
I really can't explain the feeling of not wanting anything to do with anyone who was a guy. I've never felt that kind of hatred before but I did today. It all started getting worse when Doug was constantly asking me what was wrong and why I wasn't talking to him. I couldn't really say to him "Oh nothing I just hate your gender today." No I couldn't say that to him so all I did say was nothing and hoped that he would leave it alone...he didn't. Plus in Bio another male friend of mine....lets call him old man kept asking me what I was doing in spare and if I could help him with his Drama assignment, I mean no offense to him but his drama assignment is really boring to me and I didn't want to spend anytime with males today so I told him that drama was really boring and I didn't want to do drama in spare.
Then in spare Doug was already at a table and I sat at a different table because as you already know males yeah whatever, anyway, so I sat with my three best friends in the world and had a really good spare. I felt really confortable for the first time today and it was really good to just laugh and have fun.
The rest of the day was really meh with Doug constantly staring at me during spare and maths like he was seeing if I was really fine with everything but I knew he knew that I was acting differently to when I was with me and when I was the girls.
So yeah hopefully tomorrow will be better and I won't be hating every guy I see.
Peace out bloggers....
I really can't explain the feeling of not wanting anything to do with anyone who was a guy. I've never felt that kind of hatred before but I did today. It all started getting worse when Doug was constantly asking me what was wrong and why I wasn't talking to him. I couldn't really say to him "Oh nothing I just hate your gender today." No I couldn't say that to him so all I did say was nothing and hoped that he would leave it alone...he didn't. Plus in Bio another male friend of mine....lets call him old man kept asking me what I was doing in spare and if I could help him with his Drama assignment, I mean no offense to him but his drama assignment is really boring to me and I didn't want to spend anytime with males today so I told him that drama was really boring and I didn't want to do drama in spare.
Then in spare Doug was already at a table and I sat at a different table because as you already know males yeah whatever, anyway, so I sat with my three best friends in the world and had a really good spare. I felt really confortable for the first time today and it was really good to just laugh and have fun.
The rest of the day was really meh with Doug constantly staring at me during spare and maths like he was seeing if I was really fine with everything but I knew he knew that I was acting differently to when I was with me and when I was the girls.
So yeah hopefully tomorrow will be better and I won't be hating every guy I see.
Peace out bloggers....
Saturday, 14 May 2011
Tuesday, 10 May 2011
Ewww...Sickness
Sickness is really not a fun thing. I really find it amazing how I've spent most of the day in bed only semi-awake and not really knowing what has been happening in the outside world. It's only until about half an hour ago that I actually felt well enough to come out of my room only to lay down on the couch in front of the TV.
I am so tired. So tired of all the assignments that teachers keep giving us and then they take us out of school on excursion. Not that I'm complaining about that. I'm not, it's just that they said at the start of the year that they were going to try and make this a "fun" year and that they'll try not to put too much pressure on us. But the amount of pressure they have already put on us is insane. I know that a number of friends have multipul assignments for the same subject and then other teachers are putting more assignments on top of those other assignments.
Ewww all of this is making me kinda depressed. Well there is one thing to kinda look forward to. The fact that our school is going to be on national TV tomorrow and one of my best friends [Phantomess] is going to be interviewed for the thing. Hahahaha good luck darling, hopefully we'll all the there with you so that you won't be all by yourse;f and won't mess anything up. You'll be wonderful I know that you will be :D
Oh well I feel like dping sp,e homewprk now because I feel kinda guilty staying home today even though I was dying this morning.
Good-Bye my fellow bloggers and hopefully I'll see you all tomorrow
I am so tired. So tired of all the assignments that teachers keep giving us and then they take us out of school on excursion. Not that I'm complaining about that. I'm not, it's just that they said at the start of the year that they were going to try and make this a "fun" year and that they'll try not to put too much pressure on us. But the amount of pressure they have already put on us is insane. I know that a number of friends have multipul assignments for the same subject and then other teachers are putting more assignments on top of those other assignments.
Ewww all of this is making me kinda depressed. Well there is one thing to kinda look forward to. The fact that our school is going to be on national TV tomorrow and one of my best friends [Phantomess] is going to be interviewed for the thing. Hahahaha good luck darling, hopefully we'll all the there with you so that you won't be all by yourse;f and won't mess anything up. You'll be wonderful I know that you will be :D
Oh well I feel like dping sp,e homewprk now because I feel kinda guilty staying home today even though I was dying this morning.
Good-Bye my fellow bloggers and hopefully I'll see you all tomorrow
Tuesday, 3 May 2011
Charming Much.
Well I said that I'll never blog about this again but I think I need to get this off my chest....
HOW CAN YOU REJECT SOMEONE AND THEN MINUTES LATER ASK ON FB WHEN IT'S THE RIGHT TIME TO ASK THE GIRL YOU WANT TO GO TO THE FORMAL WITH???
Sorry just felt like yelling that but seriously, you dismiss me so fast then try and go after the girl you want....That's just cowardly in my eyes as you can't even stick around and talk about the issue with me.
I actually kinda want her to reject you just to teach you a lesson. People have said to me that she doesn't like you the way you like her, she doesn't want to go to the formal with you but do you listen no you don't so when someone does kinda ask you and you say "Oh I'm sorry [white ribbon]." Sorry for what??? For liking someone else???? I really don't give a SHIT if you like her or not, what I care about is that you didn't have the guts to talk to me about it.
If she does reject you (GOD I HOPE SHE DOES) and then come back to me and say "Hey if you're still free..." I am just going to laugh in your face. If you can't see what has just happened then you really are as stupid as I think you are.
But you know what....it's ok. It's not the end of the world. I'm not hurt by your rejection. I just pitty you for not knowing any better.
Have a fun time at the formal by yourself
HOW CAN YOU REJECT SOMEONE AND THEN MINUTES LATER ASK ON FB WHEN IT'S THE RIGHT TIME TO ASK THE GIRL YOU WANT TO GO TO THE FORMAL WITH???
Sorry just felt like yelling that but seriously, you dismiss me so fast then try and go after the girl you want....That's just cowardly in my eyes as you can't even stick around and talk about the issue with me.
I actually kinda want her to reject you just to teach you a lesson. People have said to me that she doesn't like you the way you like her, she doesn't want to go to the formal with you but do you listen no you don't so when someone does kinda ask you and you say "Oh I'm sorry [white ribbon]." Sorry for what??? For liking someone else???? I really don't give a SHIT if you like her or not, what I care about is that you didn't have the guts to talk to me about it.
If she does reject you (GOD I HOPE SHE DOES) and then come back to me and say "Hey if you're still free..." I am just going to laugh in your face. If you can't see what has just happened then you really are as stupid as I think you are.
But you know what....it's ok. It's not the end of the world. I'm not hurt by your rejection. I just pitty you for not knowing any better.
Have a fun time at the formal by yourself
Wednesday, 27 April 2011
That Just Ruined My Good Mood
OMG!!! This is possibly the worst thing that could ever happen to me. My father has just tried to contact me on facebook and I haven't seen or spoken to him in over 7 years.
I can't believe he'd use fb to try and get to me. I'm not mad at him for trying to find me through fb the whole thing about it has made me really nervious. I really don't know how to handle any of it.
I'm just scared about it....
I can't believe he'd use fb to try and get to me. I'm not mad at him for trying to find me through fb the whole thing about it has made me really nervious. I really don't know how to handle any of it.
I'm just scared about it....
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