The Week That Was

Hey people, it's that time again. Presenting THE WEEK THAT WAS! 


I think I should start with Sunday as I never actually do and isn't it actually the start of the week and not Monday? 


Sunday: Sundays are meant to be lazy and joyful but I only like Sunday nights as they feel better compared to the rest of the day. So almost all of Sunday was spent on the computer job searching. I found quite a few promising ones so I applied for them along with some ones that I may not get but thought I should go for anyway. It doesn't matter if I go for some I'm not going to get. All I need is one job. THE job. I'll get it, I just have to be patient in the process. Nothing much else was done on this day. 


Monday: Honestly, the days this week are an absolute bler. I can't really remember what happened on Monday. I think I just went to the library and job hunted. Yeah, oh and I think someone stole my spot in the library. 


Tuesday: I think this may have been the day when I was running a little bit late by all of 5 minutes and some lady stole my spot again. I planned to take it as soon as she moved so I sat in an armchair across from her to make sure that I was going to be the first one to the seat. Only one problem. I can't exactly determine when someone is going to be leaving and it turned out that she didn't leave until half and hour before I was due to leave. That was really annoying and of course by this time I couldn't be bothered moving from the armchair. It's very rare that people are at the library for the same amount of time or longer than I am. I get there when the library opens at 9am and I don't leave until 2:55 in the afternoon. That's a total of 5 hours and 55 minutes. That's a pretty long time, it's basically a school day. Not that I do them anymore or anything since I you know GRADUATED. I think this may or may not have been the day that I saw another one of my old friends on the train. What is it with me and seeing people on trains. It's the most random thing. I now look out for people just in case I see them. I don't have a problem seeing them, it's just a bit of a shock when I do and I don't really know what to do in that situation. Do I go up and talk to them or look awkwardly out the window and try not to make eye contact or say hello and go back to whatever it was that I was doing before I saw them? I still haven't figured it out and he was the third person I'd seen in 2 weeks on the train. The first one was great and we talked, the second was awkward and only realised I was on the train at all just before I got off and the third asked me to sit next to him but I declined since I would be getting off in two stops. It's wasn't THAT awkward but I just didn't know where to look. 


Wednesday: I can't actually remember Wednesday at all so it mustn't have been very eventful. I won't bore you with trying to think of something then. 


Thursday: Okay, so Thursday is when something major went down. Over the past week I was approached by Doug about a textbook he needed for his uni that I had. You see, I did uni during year 12 and for part of this I had to buy a textbook (duh). Now he is doing the subject that I was doing and he wanted to buy the book off of me. Now you know how I'm kinda unstable at the moment blah blah blah. Well, I thought this would be fine since I was getting money for a book I didn't even use but then he would just drag me along with the details and when I was going to get the money etc. He approached me last Thursday for this and I hadn't heard anything from it so I started getting anxious and I just wanted it sorted because I had had enough. So last night I finally dealt with it by simply telling him that I didn't want to be stuffed around anymore and I wasn't going to continue to take it. I also told him that he wasn't getting the book from me because of it and that I didn't want to deal with him anymore. I felt free after that point but because I had been carrying it around with me for a week a good cry/breakdown of crying was in order for my body to release everything it had been holding it. I felt better because of it but then I started to doubt myself again and think unhealthy thoughts again. I have problems with these thoughts and they often cloud my mind and my judgement in certain situations. I'm working on it I promise but right now I'm having a hard time. 


Friday: Today was good as I felt refreshed from the night-before. Mum and I were planning our day trip to the coast and I was really looking forward to relaxing instead of being anxious and not able to handle my emotions. One thing about this day did stand out though. My wisdom teeth are coming through and it is a very painful experience. I also didn't use any form of media today, until I got home that is. It was good, it was relaxing. But the pain of my teeth was always there and I had a hard time thinking about anything else. When I got home the pain of that was so bad and I broke drown again because I couldn't handle everything that had happened during the week. I have become quite the crier since the start of this year and that's saying something since I rarely use to cry at all. I found this book about happiness, healing and well-being. I'm going to take it when I go to the beach and start from there and see where it takes me. I'm hoping it will heal whatever is going on inside of me and bring me closer to being the person I want to be compared to this shell of a person who can't cope with anything additional coming into her life. 


I hope the book will be a blessing. Here's hoping. Until next time, that was the week that was.