The Problem With Today Was You

Today was suppose to be the best day ever. Instead it was one of the worse days as I had this sudden hatred for the male species. I couldn't stand anyone male. It was so weird because it only started when Doug came and started talking to me this morning, he wasn't talking to me about anything import but I was really dismissive of him. Then other guys that are my friends were talking to me and I really didn't want to talk to them either.

I really can't explain the feeling of not wanting anything to do with anyone who was a guy. I've never felt that kind of hatred before but I did today. It all started getting worse when Doug was constantly asking me what was wrong and why I wasn't talking to him. I couldn't really say to him "Oh nothing I just hate your gender today." No I couldn't say that to him so all I did say was nothing and hoped that he would leave it alone...he didn't. Plus in Bio another male friend of mine....lets call him old man kept asking me what I was doing in spare and if I could help him with his Drama assignment, I mean no offense to him but his drama assignment is really boring to me and I didn't want to spend anytime with males today so I told him that drama was really boring and I didn't want to do drama in spare.

Then in spare Doug was already at a table and I sat at a different table because as you already know males yeah whatever, anyway, so I sat with my three best friends in the world and had a really good spare. I felt really confortable for the first time today and it was really good to just laugh and have fun.

The rest of the day was really meh with Doug constantly staring at me during spare and maths like he was seeing if I was really fine with everything but I knew he knew that I was acting differently to when I was with me and when I was the girls.

So yeah hopefully tomorrow will be better and I won't be hating every guy I see.

Peace out bloggers....

Ewww...Sickness

Sickness is really not a fun thing. I really find it amazing how I've spent most of the day in bed only semi-awake and not really knowing what has been happening in the outside world. It's only until about half an hour ago that I actually felt well enough to come out of my room only to lay down on the couch in front of the TV.

I am so tired. So tired of all the assignments that teachers keep giving us and then they take us out of school on excursion. Not that I'm complaining about that. I'm not, it's just that they said at the start of the year that they were going to try and make this a "fun" year and that they'll try not to put too much pressure on us. But the amount of pressure they have already put on us is insane. I know that a number of friends have multipul assignments for the same subject and then other teachers are putting more assignments on top of those other assignments.

Ewww all of this is making me kinda depressed. Well there is one thing to kinda look forward to. The fact that our school is going to be on national TV tomorrow and one of my best friends [Phantomess] is going to be interviewed for the thing. Hahahaha good luck darling, hopefully we'll all the there with you so that you won't be all by yourse;f and won't mess anything up. You'll be wonderful I know that you will be :D

Oh well I feel like dping sp,e homewprk now because I feel kinda guilty staying home today even though I was dying this morning.

Good-Bye my fellow bloggers and hopefully I'll see you all tomorrow

Charming Much.

Well I said that I'll never blog about this again but I think I need to get this off my chest....

HOW CAN YOU REJECT SOMEONE AND THEN MINUTES LATER ASK ON FB WHEN IT'S THE RIGHT TIME TO ASK THE GIRL YOU WANT TO GO TO THE FORMAL WITH???

Sorry just felt like yelling that but seriously, you dismiss me so fast then try and go after the girl you want....That's just cowardly in my eyes as you can't even stick around and talk about the issue with me.

I actually kinda want her to reject you just to teach you a lesson. People have said to me that she doesn't like you the way you like her, she doesn't want to go to the formal with you but do you listen no you don't so when someone does kinda ask you and you say "Oh I'm sorry [white ribbon]." Sorry for what??? For liking someone else???? I really don't give a SHIT if you like her or not, what I care about is that you didn't have the guts to talk to me about it.

If she does reject you (GOD I HOPE SHE DOES) and then come back to me and say "Hey if you're still free..." I am just going to laugh in your face. If you can't see what has just happened then you really are as stupid as I think you are.

But you know what....it's ok. It's not the end of the world. I'm not hurt by your rejection. I just pitty you for not knowing any better.

Have a fun time at the formal by yourself

That Just Ruined My Good Mood

OMG!!! This is possibly the worst thing that could ever happen to me. My father has just tried to contact me on facebook and I haven't seen or spoken to him in over 7 years.

I can't believe he'd use fb to try and get to me. I'm not mad at him for trying to find me through fb the whole thing about it has made me really nervious. I really don't know how to handle any of it.

I'm just scared about it....

Perception

Perception

Different perceptions of things can be dangerous. Like someone thinking that you're writing your whole blog about them but then telling them that you're writing about your experiences and that person happens to be a big influence in your life.

I know that it may seem that I'm writing about just one person but that's not it's suppose to be...This blog is suppose to be about my experiences in my final year at school but the one person that I am constantly writing about happens to be a big part of my life, I've written about him in good ways and bad ways but I'm going to try not writting about him anymore.

I just needed to express how I was feeling about this person and this seemed like the perfect place. I could just write down my feelings and go about normal life without it bottleing up.

I'm sorry if I've offened anyone with writing about this one person all the time and that is why I am stopping, I will write anything but him.

How Predictable

How predictable can one person be? This post is a continuation from the last 3 posts I've done. He has done this again...His friend comes back and I just seem to not exist AGAIN!!! WHAT THE HELL???
How am I going to sort this issue out? There has to be a solution but I just don't know what it is. This has happened before and I told him about it. He was really apologic about it but nothing changed. Now it's happening again.

I know it really has to stop but if I talk to him again about it then it's going to keep happening.

Stupid, stupid, stupid....how can this keep happening?

He knows that I'm blogging about him but I don't really care.

If he wants to read it then he'll know how I really feel about being messed around like this.

I just can't go there anymore.