The SLQ Harem

Well ladies and gentlemen since my breakdown and horribly depressing post yesterday about fears, I have decided to create a wants post. I want a lot of things. I want to move house and neighborhood, I want a new car, I want a good job, I want a good career, I want a routine and I want to have a boyfriend to share everything with and have that partnership I've seen others have. 


Now, to get things started I think I'll skip over the bit about wanting to move and all that because you guys heard all that in the last post. I think I'll move straight onto wanting a new car. You see, I've already got my own car which is something that is coveted by people my age. I love my car, I really do, but she's just getting to that point where everything is starting to need fixing. She's 9 years old this year and they say you should replace your car every 5 or so years and I'm way over that. But I love her and I couldn't bare to give her up. So I'll just have to suck it up because I love her too much. Even though she's not ever fast, has a wonky wheel (which is truly terrifying) and that she constantly smells of petrol. I couldn't sell her. I'm afraid she'll never be treated the way she was treated with me. I think I may just have to fix her and then drive her for a bit longer. Yeah that's what I'll do. Old cars for the win!


Next want: Get a good job. I have wanted this for a while. I want to have a job where I can go everyday and get there at the same time and leave at the same time everyday. I want something in the city so it gives me a good drive in the morning and in the afternoon. I like a good drive. It's nice driving in the morning because everything is fresh from the night before and everybody is just waking up and heading to work just like you are. Then you go to work and have the day all planned out for you and you do the same things everyday. It's a nice feeling. It's like school. Going to the same place at the same time everyday. Getting a job will be wonderful. Now all I can do is keep doing what I'm doing. giving people applications and sending them in. I've already had to turn down two jobs because it wasn't the right time. Well, it's the right time now. 


So, I want a good career. I have changed my career so many times it's driving me crazy. And yet I keep coming back to the one industry: Education. When I was in year 9 I decided that I was going to be a teacher instead of a vet nurse. We all go through the phase of wanting to become a vet and some people are destined to do that but I was just not one of them. So I wanted to be a teacher. Nothing wrong with that. They can get work nation wide as well as some international. But the job security was always something that didn't agree with me. I've heard from one of my best friends that the education industry has a habit of switching people around without much notice. I don't really like that or the fact that in Australia there is a thing called 'Bush Service'. This means that new teachers who have just graduated are preferred to go out into the middle of nowhere for a couple of years and give something back to the community or some crap like that. Then once they've done their service they are able to come back to the city and apply for jobs around the city. Sounds simple enough right? WRONG! There are so many new teachers each year that it is so difficult to find work. That is where the Bush Service came from I'm pretty sure. Nobody quote me on it but I'm pretty sure that's how they got around the whole issue of having no jobs available. So they'll send me into the middle of nowhere and I'll be stuck there without knowing anyone in town or what to do with myself. But I've tried to find other careers but nothing seems to fit as well as teaching does. Oh well, I think I'll just see what this year takes me.


Next: Routine. I haven't had a routine since I graduated from high school almost two months ago. School was school. As I mentioned before, you go there at 8 leave at 3:15. Simple. I think I have finally got myself a routine again and I love it. My routine is that I leave the house at 7am every morning with mum and she drops me off at the Gallery of Modern Art (GoMA) in the city then she goes off to work. This leaves me in the city for the day. When I began my new routine (yesterday) I didn't really know what to do with myself so I just waited until the State Library opened and went in there. Today however, I took a walk along the boardwalk and after that I went back to SLQ and waited until it was opening time. I must say that for a library in Brisbane, heck a library anywhere, the place has a lot of mmmsauce. Now for those of you who don't know what or who mmmsauce is then I can't help you. Mmmsauce just is mmmsauce. Mmmsauce can't be defined because it is unique to everyone. Everyone has different mmmsauce. But since going to SLQ I have found quite a few mmmsauces. None more than today, but the funny thing is that my friends have been there every weekend for years and have told me that there is no mmmsauce in sight. Maybe it's just my lucky days. I hope the trend continues next week . That could be exciting. 


The last thing I want is something that only two other people on this earth with understand. I talking about the other two members of the SWB club better known as the Single Women's Business club. That's right you heard me or read it; whatever. If you want to read aloud that's cool too. Whatever floats your boat. Anyway, it's hard to explain how I'm feeling at the moment towards relationships. While at SLQ today there were all these couples there and they were sharing seats and kissing and leaning towards each other and all I wanted to do was start crying and be all "WHY MUST YOU DO THAT *sob* IN FRONT OF ME LIKE THAT?" yeah that would have gone down well. It's not that I hate it when people show public displays of affection, I just don't like having to see it because I don't have it and I want it. It's kinda unfair but I guess that's just where I am at the moment. I hate it and I don't wish it one anyone but meh. It was going to happen. I guess it doesn't help the situation when I'm going to be seeing my ex-boyfriend this weekend. Adding salt to the wounds I guess you should say. I just had a perfect idea. Someone should write a book about SWB. That would make a great book. Everything we go through, what we feel. How we get together and go to the same cafe with this totally mmmsauce waiter. Stupid mmmsauce. I mean yes totally mmmsuace but still totally out of reach. 


Well that was the wants post. I must say I hope the SLQ harem are back next week.