This week (keep in mind that it is only Wednesday) has been a very strange week. You see, over the weekend I visited the beach and it was one of the most relaxing times I have experienced. It was wonderful. It helped me exit reality for the day. But now, now I'm back to reality and I hate it. I mean it's the same always the same but something is different somehow. I just can't put my finger on it. I think my anxiety levels have increased again which they haven't done since early January/late December. I'm on edge and it's only been happening the past 3 days. I'm really not looking forward to the weekend either but I'm trying to tell myself that it's only 2 days then it will be over for 5. But then it comes around again. Another 2 days before 5. I remember feeling similar to this at school in relation to the weekends but not in year 12. More like years 10 through 11. It's like a big endless cycle. But it will stop? Hopefully. Maybe staying off Facebook for a while will help. I'm all for leaving people from school behind but not the ones that are like family. Maybe I need to stop seeing what everyone from school is doing now and just concentrate on myself and my closest friends. That should make things easier right?
Now, onto a more lighter note. Phantomess has now got her license the lucky thing :D I am so proud of her for being the first one in the group plus showing her stupid, rude instructor that she could do it when he said she couldn't. With this brings me to my driving ability. Okay, so I have my learners and I have a considerable amount of hours and I'm ready to take my test (as soon as I finish my hours that is) but the trouble is that my current car, while she is wonderful and I love her heaps, needs a bit of work. Okay a lot of work. She really needs a servicing and new tyres and brakes and all the rest of it but until that happens I have to practice in mums car. Believe me that does not go down well. While she says that she trusts me with driving the fact that I see her gripping the door handle and telling me to slow down or to not do this or that makes it very clear that she doesn't trust me with the car. Funny that. So now I haven't been driving very much because mum doesn't want me to drive my car because it needs work and because "the brakes might fail" and she won't really let me drive her car. What a sticky situation I'm in.
I don't really know what else to chat about in this blog post. Maybe I've said everything I needed to. Oh! I almost forgot to talk about Valentine's Day. So yesterday was Valentine's Day and no matter where I looked or walked there were women and even girls in school uniform (yes school uniform) carrying flowers (mainly roses) from their boyfriends or partners. Let's just say that I was more than a little bitter about the whole thing.Valentine's Day is the one day where your singleness is pointed out to you. It got worse because then I started seeing people actually doing the exchange of roses and chocolates and bears when they were picking up their significant other up from work. The whole thing was absolutely rubbed in my face then. So I come to ask myself, what is the meaning of this day? Like, what was the very first Valentine's Day all about?Has it changed much since then? Has it just become a big commercial thing and lost it's true meaning? You have to wonder these things don't you? Haven't all holidays come very commercial though? I think they have. Whether that's your opinion or not doesn't bother me but I believe they have all lost meaning.
I think that's all I've got to say for now. Happy blogging everyone. I think we should blog more, don't you?
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