That Just Ruined My Good Mood

OMG!!! This is possibly the worst thing that could ever happen to me. My father has just tried to contact me on facebook and I haven't seen or spoken to him in over 7 years.

I can't believe he'd use fb to try and get to me. I'm not mad at him for trying to find me through fb the whole thing about it has made me really nervious. I really don't know how to handle any of it.

I'm just scared about it....

Perception

Perception

Different perceptions of things can be dangerous. Like someone thinking that you're writing your whole blog about them but then telling them that you're writing about your experiences and that person happens to be a big influence in your life.

I know that it may seem that I'm writing about just one person but that's not it's suppose to be...This blog is suppose to be about my experiences in my final year at school but the one person that I am constantly writing about happens to be a big part of my life, I've written about him in good ways and bad ways but I'm going to try not writting about him anymore.

I just needed to express how I was feeling about this person and this seemed like the perfect place. I could just write down my feelings and go about normal life without it bottleing up.

I'm sorry if I've offened anyone with writing about this one person all the time and that is why I am stopping, I will write anything but him.

How Predictable

How predictable can one person be? This post is a continuation from the last 3 posts I've done. He has done this again...His friend comes back and I just seem to not exist AGAIN!!! WHAT THE HELL???
How am I going to sort this issue out? There has to be a solution but I just don't know what it is. This has happened before and I told him about it. He was really apologic about it but nothing changed. Now it's happening again.

I know it really has to stop but if I talk to him again about it then it's going to keep happening.

Stupid, stupid, stupid....how can this keep happening?

He knows that I'm blogging about him but I don't really care.

If he wants to read it then he'll know how I really feel about being messed around like this.

I just can't go there anymore.

The Day After Continued

Ok so this is the second time I've blogged today about this one issue but this really needs to me said.

NOW MY FRIEND WHO IS REALLY CONFUSING ME WANTS TO GET A BLOGGER ACCOUNT JUST SO THAT HE CAN READ MY BLOG AND I TOLD HIM THAT I HAVEN'T BLOGGED ANYTHING ABOUT HIM BUT I HAVE IN BOTH GOOD AND BAD WAYS....AHHHH!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Now what am I going to day???

The Day After

So this blog post is really a continuation from the blog post that I wrote yesterday. Yesterday I was really determined to have some space from my friend and really not have anything to do with him because of the way he has been treating me. But now, THE DAY AFTER, he hasn't stopped talking to me. I think it's because the person he is usually with is away today and he's just gone to me because there's no one else. How am I suppose to deal with that?? I can see it happening right in front of my eyes and yet I still can't stop it.

Plus on top of everything, he is talking to me about one of his personal issues again! It's completely different to the one he was before but it's stupid. I just really don't know what to do in this situation because I know that he'll go back to not talking to me tomorrow because his best friend will be back at school.

Please help me with this problem my blogger friends because I really need your advice!

Hmmmm

Do you ever get the feeling that you're losing someone close to you just after you've helped them with something really important to them. That's how I feel. I feel like I'm losing one of my closest friends after I just helped him with some personal issues and helping him with his assignments, he's not talking to me, the only real thing that he's said to me in the past few days has been 'How was your holidays?' I mean what am I suppose to do with that?

Now he just doesn't say anything real to me. Should I just cut the friendship off and move on or should I try to do something about it? This is a person who I have mentioned a number of times in my blog but our friendship has just been going downhill since I helped him with his personal problems. I think I'll be happier if I just let him go but I just don't know where I stand. Do I automatically think that he's already let the friendship go and moved on to other friends (you can tell he has btw), I just don't feel like I want to go through the hassels with him anymore.

I'm finished, I can't keep going around in this circle anymore. If he's not going to talk to me then why should I count him as a true friend? True friends are there for you through thick and thin, they talk to you everyday and you know that no matter the problem that they will always be there for you. That's how I use to feel but now it's just too hard to be around him, I feel unhappy and annoyed when I am around him, that is a big comparison to how I feel when I'm around the most amazing people in the world. I don't want to feel that way anymore.

I'm finished....